Ride

Hi.

So it seems that June has been one of those very very confusing month for me. Lots of feelings felt before in the past I felt today. Or should I say, in this month. And lots of decisions I have to do. And being me, it's hard to make decisions.

This sucks.

But whatever that happens, some things are a blessing in disguise I guess. As it does help me in a way.

Today, I started my day in a rush and touched down at work feelin bloody restless. My mood was okay then it went downhill when something happened then I went all neutral again only to be fcuked up again by another small thing (yes, my mood's in bad shape today). How crazy can life be I thought to myself. So then I justify everything on being a woman with that monthly cycle. We can always get away with that.

And then there's this new chapter back here that's always on the look and always there. I had food enough to feed an army just because I'm having a bad day. I wanted just a lil but I got more than I want. I'll soon be able to edit nicer photos and at a faster speed. I soon will be telling time in a different light. All this in such an abrupt period of time.

Like... wey hey. This is cool. Shrugs??

I don't know what's goin on man.
I wish someone could explain to me.
What is this?

'til then, I think ima keep running on the greener side until the seasons over.

I have the right..don't I? we all do, don't we?

SYOKS!

:D :D :D :D :D

that's all i can say. nuff said.


SYOKS!


not just da fun in dis picture but everything else that has nothing to do with it!



weee! i like this week XD

knackered

knows that this is not the way the cookie should crumble. this is ridiculous and messy..blah! silly silly me and if in the malaysian way "nah, who ask you!"

:(..desperate bah. So now I just gotta wait for some feedback and expect da worst!

fcuk.

blarghhh!! so P E N A T O M F G H M M M P H H H H H!!!

=_= i am in the crankiest of the crankiest mood ever now bcoz im chasin a dateline and I need rest for tonight, i know its AM now but I need rest for today's PM because I haven't slept since yesterdays PM. No, am not partying tonight but am off to a party. I know right.. but i think ima not push it like the previous event. even right now i just feel like typing away and malas to put caps on my letters. bcoz right now, am still 'workin' man.. I KNOW RITE!

z...z.. must not fall asleep. must be patient, it won't be long till it's done. I cant wait to shut the world.

but ... i had the most 'HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!' conversation on the phone waaaay back at 11pmish just now. yay! ^_^

"I got promoted!"

wee! congrats mero maya.

gnite do'ers of the morning. gaddamit.

sick and alive

Sick is the last thing i need to be now. :S

And the thing about being in KK is, once one is sick..everyone else will be too. Livin in a small city like this, it's hard to escape that if the season is here and all the doctors will be happy to get ur dough and companies will be the other way round because, we get to MC :D. Ha ha.

Been really really busy these days physically and mentally. Lots of things to catch up and sort out. Haven't really had the time to actually spend some time caring for myself though..like, geez. BILLS BILLS BILLS! Assignments left and right, mana lagi mau keep up at work. Fuck man, there's never enough time in a day..and even if I have the time..I should be doin' something else. But no, I was doing something else..which relaxes me. (like layaning music..=P big sucker fo that man)

Anyways, hey, it's June.. it's the midyear, and still, I've never felt more alive. It's a journey that I think everyone should go thru at least once in your lifespan. And what's that journey u may ask? Go figurelah. When you go home with nothing but you're feeling content..it's priceless. You definitely can't get that with money or from someone else by depending on them. You can only get it through yourself.

deep shit aye? Emo aye? nah, I just think it's a nice feeling. Shrugs. As simple as that. I wish that when I die, I die with that feeling when I heave out my last breath.

I don't like to worry so much but living in a demanding world gives you no choice but to run the rat race like a horse. kimek. pprrfrfrfrffftttt!!

Owell. I hope I manage to sort alot of things out then I can live life as smooth as a baby's butt. As long as am able to stand, I guess I've not reached my limit. And if I fall, I'll pick up something..no biggie. And if somethings trying to stop me, I'll take that as a challenge and not a red light. I've had better days.

Better had than none at all init?




:)..hmm










Even now, am stealing time to say this to you. Even now, am busy..even when I sleep, am busy.

..but it's funny because I feel alright. Why? I will never know. Or maybe I do but how fine, still remains a mystery.


I'm on a high, I'm on a high
There's nothing more to it
We are the sea and the sky
And the blue that runs through it






And there are some who say there are
So many things I need
So I run or I fight and I crawl or I scream and I bleed
I bleed, I bleed

Well it's a lie, it's a lie-don't you believe it
If you're fine, then you're fine-it's all how you see it
Oh, there will never be no conspiracy of happiness





I'm on a high, on a high
There's nothing more to it
I have the sun, it's a star
Why should I refuse it?






And there are so many reasons I could give you why I should be down
There's not enough money or time and my love
You're not around
Around, around






You're alive, you're alive-what else could you give me
You are fine, you are fine-nothing's worth feeling
Oh, there never will be no conspiracy of happiness

I'm on a high, on a high
You are the sea and the sky








It's a lie, It's a lie don't you believe it '
Cause I've tried and I've tried,
and I can't really see it Yeah,
I'm trapped inside my conspiracy of happiness





said I was yours, you were mine
but I didn't really mean it
and I lied and I lied
and I wish you hadn't seen it 'cause
I'm trapped inside my conspiracy of happiness
I'm on a high, on a high, there's nothing more to it, yeah.

doh!

Yea, as I expected..just when u thought the credits are rollin, towards the end there's a hidden scene. And am now back to square one.

wtf.

Biasalah tu. Geez.

The Breeze Synergy went by really well and by the end of the day..(which's 6am for me..i think?) I was DEAD TIRED. Knocked out and somewhat saved from a 'situation'. Ha ha ha! Thanks JC. The next morning I woke up feeling all shitty but I thought that hey, that was FUN. Especially when I noticed something for quite sometime and managed to smack it. Or play it. Whatever you wanna label it. Pfffrtt...doesn't matter. No biggie >:D

Some photos i got off fb.






smack that people.

Anyways... bleh. Im still feelin tired @_@. I have photos from my camera but I'll do that later.

ok?

oh. He's off to the jungle again. ngeh.

..njoy this set by Dj Fine China.

I m proud of u

Inhalessssss.... oookay. So after months and months of a joyride, the credits are up. I enjoyed the movie. The lil things that makes you go humm..gigglin' over the silly lil things that made no sense. Haha. It had been a good excersice. And it made me who I am today. It made me real that only a few could see. After so long of having that trust n freedom, I once again learned. I am grateful. It was sweet, surreal, weird, sweet, fun, almost, seems like and ..sweet?

cute.

But, we all know that from the start.. it's the future that is now. And along comes history. Such a beautiful thing we call Life. Vicious as it is and without a warning. As beautiful as the 1st cry of a newborn baby. Confusing like men and women. Fragile like a heart of a mother. Playful like a toddler. That's life man.

Kiss a life then u hang around it for awhile. Stir it to make it taste better. Say things to flatter the delight. Give a part of your world to return the offer. Share songs and stories and go to sleep. Concern it like brother to brother. Smell like diamonds but heart's made of steel. Like a winner but damn, just sinners. Today. It all sums up to this. It is life and we have lived. And it's done. Signs are out and the player read it. It has to be done. Just a segment of your imagination, scratched out erased. And now, fuck... am actually very impressed. Not bad..not bad at all. ('',)

But it never ends here. It just got better man. Just got better.

winks*

To wrap it up, my award's on the way..totally rad! :)


Oh i think this songs 'reasonable' oh kan?

Blame it on the goose, gotcha feeling loose
Blame it on the 'tron, catch me in a zone
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol

She said, she usually don't
But I know that she front
'Cause shawty know what she wan't
She don't wanna to seem like she's easy

I ain't saying what you won't do
But you know what we're probably gon' do
What you been feenin' deep inside

Let it out now, girl what you drinkin', gon' let it sink in
Here for a weekend, thinkin', we can
See where we could be if we press fast forward
Just one more round and you're down I'd know it

Fill another cup up, feelin' on your butt what
You don't even care now, I was unaware
How fine you was before
My buzz set in, my buzz set in

Blame it on the goose, gotcha feeling loose
Blame it on the 'tron, catch me in a zone
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol

Blame it on the vodka, blame it on the henny
Blame it on the blue tap, got you feeling dizzy
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol

Ooh see, she spilled some drink on me
And now I'm knowin' she tipsy
She put her body on me
And she keeps staring me right in my eyes

No tellin' what I'm gon' do
Baby, I would rather show you
What you been missin' in your life
When I get inside

Girl, what you drinkin'? Don't let it sink in
Here for the weekend, thinkin', we can
See where we could be if we press fast forward
Just one more round if your down, I'm fallin'

Fill another cup up, feelin' on your butt what
You don't even care now, I was unaware
How fine you was before
My buzz set in, my buzz set in

Blame it on the goose, gotcha feeling loose
Blame it on the 'tron, catch me in a zone
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol

Blame it on the vodka, blame it on the henny
Blame it on the blue tap, got you feeling dizzy
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol

T-Pain
Girl, I know you feel good
Just like you look, couple more shots
You open up like a book, I ain't trippin 'cause I'ma read ya
Shawty, I ain't trippin', I jus' wanna please ya

I'ma take a shot of Nuvo, shawty, then you know
It's going down, we can go kick it like Judo
You know what I mean
Shawty got drunk, thought it all was a dream
So I made her say I, I

Now she got her hand on my leg
Got my seats all wet in my ride
All over my ride

She look me dead in the eye
Then my pants got bigga
She already knew what to figga
Had her lookin' at her boyfriend like, "Fuck dat nigga"

Blame it on the juice, gotcha feeling loose
Blame it on the 'tron, catch me in a zone
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol

Blame it on the vodka, blame it on the henny
Blame it on a blue tap, got you feeling dizzy
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol
Blame it on the a-a-alcohol

Now to the ballas poppin' bottles
With they henny in they cups screamin'
Money ain't a thing, if it ain't throwin' it up in the sky
Hold your drinks up high

And to my independent ballas
Who can buy they own bottles
If you lookin' like a model
When them broke fellas holla, tell 'em, bye
Hold your drinks up high

..we were dancin' based on this anthem last nite. Based on a true story of 2 dumbass of black n white. Of songlaps and countless of fuck yous thrown. HA HA HA HA HA up urs! XD word!

"Tomorrow u doooooooon't awkward ah!! If u awkward, i blady slap u ah bitch!"
"yalah so hai!"
"girl~ i care about you~ i'm there for you~ so why dont u care for me~ like care bout you~"
"Amieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Why you sooooooooo..... !!!!!!!!!!"
":D"
"fuck you OKKKKKKKKKK!!! argh!!!!"
"im u little tangechiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~"
"macam sial! oi! i rape u ah!"
">:D!!!!"

AND SOOOO!!!!!!!! We rollin' like them ballas! LAW: Leave me alone! hah!

>:) oh, have a Happy Kaamatan to all my Sabahan loves. Drink safe and don't be ashamed to speak like one.

Kotobian! Kohigaganan id talun alun. ^_^